Overthinking

Session #12

June 22, 2025

Here we go again.

I’ve been sitting around my desk for the past hour now, paralysed and unable to move.

I mean, I can move my hands and my feet but I can’t seem to move past the thoughts that have invaded my mind and left me in a state of paralysis.

“ I feel like I’m going nowhere…"

“ I don’t know if I’m cut out for this…”

“ Maybe this is a waste of time…”

My face is getting really hot and it feels like my head is about to explode from the tension.

But I just can’t help but worry.

I try to anaylse every possible outcome of life but It’s so complex and undetermined and it’s driving me crazy that I can’t control every outcome.

Life just feels like a big puzzle sometimes.

You have an image in mind with what everything should like in the end. But, the pieces are scattered so you have to carefully figure out how to put them together in the first place.

Sometimes a couple pieces will fit together and you’ll think that everything is working out perfectly.

But other times you’ll make mistakes and have to start all over again because the box you got had pieces with jagged edges and were filled with imperfections.

Such is life though, you don’t get to choose which puzzles are in your box.

But sometimes I wish mine weren’t so jagged, I wish they fit perfectly in one try instead of me having to constantly start over.

I wish my puzzles came with an instruction manual and told me exactly where each piece should go.

But life doesn’t work like that does it?

You have to figure everything out yourself.

I’m only 22 though so I guess I have more than enough time.

One day I want to look back at the jagged pieces and feel proud that I somehow managed to fit them together.

So for now, I’ll keep trying.

I just hope I choose the right pieces.